I had a really horrible dream last night where my sister died of heart failure or something, all I know is that it was medical and unexpected and I cried for the rest of the dream. I mean, I seriously cried as much as I would if she actually had died in real life. I dreamt that I turned to my mom, almost heaving with tears, breathlessly trying to explain to her how unbearable the pain was. I remember thinking, “Dad dying was hard enough, but I just don’t think I can survive this. Not her too. Not her.”
It frightening when you realize you love someone that much.